I can no longer sit Indian Style

or really any "style" for that matter. I am comfy for a lil bit then not so great and have to switch.

Anyway, not the reason for this post. 26 weeks and had a growth scan yesterday and it all went well. Babies are growing away just like singletons. Maddux is 2lbs and Alyssa is 1lb14oz. Both are in the 50th percentile. I still get nervous even tho I have so many u/s its hard to keep track. I dont feel Alyssa as much as i feel Maddux so I will start to worry that something is wrong sometimes. They both have anterior placentas so I am happy to feel anything but I asked the tech and she said that Maddux placenta is kinda by his head on top and Alyssa has a placenta that covers most of her body. She said that Maddux prob feels most of her kicks instead of me. They are both still breech and heartrates are pretty close to each other.
I will post the 3D pic we got of Maddux that is ok but nothing good of lil Aly, she kept putting her arms and hands in front of her face, she was not having any part of the pic taking.
Matt says Maddux looks like a frog but Harmony says he looks like an old man. She could pick out exactly where his face was and explained it to Matt cuz he said he couldnt see anything.
Babies still wont let anyone other than mommy feel their kicks/punches/movements. Each time someone puts their hand there, silence and calmness. Kinda funny. Matt says he will feel them when there are here.
I feel pretty crappy. The reflux meds seemed to work really well for 3 weeks or so of pure heaven but seems as tho they are loosing their magic. I now throw up in my mouth several times a day. Yuck. Doesnt matter what I eat either. I have an OB appt next week for yet another glucose test even tho I passed the first. I will ask him about the reflux at that point. I will not be looking at the scale from now on when I go to the OB. I have seen enuf! I will just now pretend I am not as big as I am and go on for the next 10 weeks in bliss. Plenty of time to diet after babies come!
I was able to give Roger an "end date" for working yesterday. Told him Sept 10th will be the end of the road for this preggo. He was fine with it, but what else is he gonna do. He still has not told me whether or not he will allow me to come as part time after babies are born. If not, I will find something else or watch a kid or 2 in the house part time. That will bring in just as much as working at the law office would so the only "bad" thing would be not being able to get dressed and out of the house at least 2x a week.
I look at Harmony and Brayden and can believe how old they are and how fast the time went and am so thankful I was able to be home with them just for those few years when they were little.
The "twin thing" is starting to freak me out more often now. Like how hard it will be and how much life will change in just a couple of months. All in a good way, but still freaky nonetheless.

Matt picked up the cribs and the dresser the other day. Dresser came in and I am slowly putting away clothes and diapers, etc in it. Cribs will prob come in next week and be put 2gether. Its like the slowest moving nursery ever. I wanna do it, I just have no energy to deal with it. Id love to have it painted, however, the thought of all that goes into that makes me sleepy so it may just stay blue, I'm sure Alyssa will not care :-)

Point of Viability! 24 weeks

Not that I would want them born now but it sure is a very nice milestone. U/s last week went well and babies growing well. This week I had an appt with my GP, OB and an u/s for cervical check with the peri. Good thing I got them all done with yesterday! Everything looks good, cept my HUGE feet and ankles, good lord they are so big! They are sayin it is "normal" and not to worry unless my BP goes up and for now it is good. They do want me to have my feet up as much as possible and wear compression socks, lol, entering old lady territory there but whatever will help cuz they kinda hurt now, along with my hands. The wedding ring will go on, however, only if I rinse my hands with cold water and then quickly put it on. I'm sure in a couple weeks that option will be gone. Had glucose test and all was fine even tho i messed it up and fasted for the night instead of just 2 hours. Blood was all fine except that i am anemic. Not a huge surprise tho, I was anemic when preg with Brayden and took iron and I'm always "borderline" anemic just on a regular day so now just taking iron to help that. I have been on them for 3 weeks now and feel nothing different so I think I need more. Doc said they will test for GD and anemia again in 3 weeks.
Kicks or punches are getting more intense which is fun but these lil stinkers know when someone elses hands are on my belly and wont move. I think they think its funny. They were moving, shaking and dancing around in there and so i yell for Harmony to hurry so she runs downstairs and throws her hand on the most active part. Silence, nothing, no movement at all for an entire 5 min that she patiently waited there. 5 min after she left they started again, my hand or arm on my belly and no probs at all. Maddux did it to Matt last night too. Frustrating but kinda entertaining at the same time.
Doc said they would write me out of work due to the back pain and swelling but I think I will push it a bit further as long as it is safe. Id love to go to part time but don't know how to even bring it up with Roger. I suppose it's like a band-aid and I just gotta do it. I don't want to, I'd rather have him ask me but I'm sure he doesn't want to deal with it either. We are thinking I should work til September - mid September but I am shooting more for Sept 1st. Maybe I can even work part time, like 3 days a week from Sept 1 to the end of Sept. Id love to not have to come back at all, not cuz i dont love my job, but cuz i love the babies more. I was lucky enuf to stay home for a few years when Harmony and Brayden were born and it was very important to me. If that is not possible then the most I will work is part time, whether it be here or another place. It is nice to get out of the house when you have lil ones so that may be a good option. I deff don't make enuf to cover daycare costs here so no point, plus, I didnt work this hard to have these babies in order to allow someone else to enjoy them during the day :-)
Hopefully no bedrest. So far so good on that front. They keep telling me that it could be strict bedrest every other week when I go and they are happy to see all is still going well in there. From the very beginning we were told that bedrest or hospital bedrest was gonna happen so its nice to have made it this far without.
Feeling pretty good considering - I'm sore and my back kills plus now I have this awful pain down my left side when I walk, but usually only when I have been down for a few hours, like a nap or a nights sleep. Prob has something to do with the back issues, but also the weight I am carrying. Its a lot for me, well, really anyone!
I'm looking forward to putting the nursery soon. The piano left on Monday so there is a lot more room in there. The entertainment center will go too. All the other crap in there just needs to find a home other than in that room. Id love to paint but we will see how that goes. Id LOVE to paint it either light brown or cream and then on one wall put huge stripes with the other color but that sure seems like a big chore right now. Maybe I will just plan that for the future. Or maybe it will just stay that weird blue it is now.
Found a great dresser and 2 cribs that are gorgeous - just gotta figure out where everything is gonna go in there - kinda like a puzzle!
Anyway, things are pluggin along and once the room is started and then finished this may all seem real..... babies in just a few months.... holy cow!

23 weeks

Yes, all my pictures are taken in the bathroom at work. Not pretty but it is what it is.
I am gonna write about it on here so family and friends don’t need to hear me talk about it over and over - feeling the babies move is so amazing. Even more amazing than I remember. It's crazy that I may have taken this for granted when I was pregnant with the Harmony and Brayden. What was my problem, how could I not see how amazing this was? I loved feeling them move, I really did, but not like this, not even close. I get butterflies each time I feel a kick, punch, flip or whatever is going on in there. I smile every time it happens. As much as I cant wait to have them in my arms, I really think I may miss having them with me at all times.
Ok, so here comes the weird, pregnancy crazy lady - cheesy talk. I feel like I am special or something cuz I am the only one who gets to feel them move. Like we have a bond already, hard to explain really but I look at Matt and think how sad it is that he cant experience this. I'm sure he could care less since he has no idea what he is missing. Again, I dont remember feeling like this when I was younger. I loved having them with me but I sure don’t remember thinking how lucky I was to be the ONLY person in the world who had that with them. It's pretty damn cool.
They are the size of footballs now, maybe even as big as an overinflated football (pretty much what I feel like most days, lol). I have an appt to see them at the specialist this week and looking forward to it. Its really neat to see them move on the screen after I feel them move.
As much as I hurt or end up peeing myself when I sneeze just feeling them move makes it all alright.

Good Golly Miss Molly!!

I have a lot of appointments! I thought I had a lot before but that as just a lil warm-up to what is in store for me now! I don’t quite know how I got to see so many doctors, but I do. Since I am “old” and having twins the OB sends me to have the ultrasounds done by a A Perintologist which is a fancy word for a high risk doctor, they spend an extra 2 or more years in college in specialized training. I also see the specialist every 2-3 weeks in Illinois for ultrasound and blood-work, Then see my OB every 3 weeks at this point for weight check (oh yippie!), measurements and such and now see the Perintologist every 2 weeks so he can check my cervix and every 4 weeks for growth ultrasound. Ummmm, yeah, not really sure how all of this is gonna work out since I only have ½ day a week off. I’m hoping that I can do the peri and the OB on the same days (most times) since they are in the same hospital and then they can all kinda fall in their own weeks but not quite sure if that’s the way it will go. If not, just more time off of work. Plus, the specialist STILL wants me to have IVIg treatments every 2-3 weeks but most of the time I can have it done while I am there, if not, then its just another appt here at the old RE’s office (the one who passed away).
I beginning to feel like the only thing I do is make and go to appts. It will only get worse as I get further along too. Its so very nice being monitored so closely, just wish it was in ONE place and ONE doctor since they all don’t agree on what my meds and plan of action should be. Oh well.
2 of the docs want me to stop the blood thinner injections and baby asprin but the specialist does not agree..... there is a lot of that going on!

At the growth u/s I had yesterday, Maddux was weighing in at 1lb 2oz and in the 45th percentile and Alyssa was weighing in it 1lb, 1oz. which is the 40th percentile. They are always so close - their heartbeats were 150 and 153 this time. They are obviously not identical, but they like to be similar. They also like to be breech, which is a-ok with me. Im sure they will turn the day b4 delivery just so I have to try to labor with them, sigh.
On a funny note about that, I was asked for the first time if they were identical AFTER I told this particular person I was having a boy and a girl. It was pretty funny cuz I said “yeah, they cant be since they are different sexes” and he (my orthodontist) got all flush and said “oh, yeah, that was really stupid, sure wish I could take that back”. I thought it was funny and I’m sure it wont be the 1st time I am asked that question.

I get to feel them more and more now - loving that! I used to be able to feel Maddux everyday but only if I was laying down on my left side. Now I feel them both moving around a lot more and even when I am sitting down. Sometimes its pretty hard even tho they are really small. I assume that is the time they are both doing something. Maddux seems more active tho.

I feel the end of my working days

..... every morning when I get up for work I think “there is no way I’m gonna make it thru this day”. I can only imagine its gonna get worse.
When I look at the picture it doesnt look that big - and then I stand up to walk and I am reminded that it IS that big - lol.

I’m only 5 months right now but in the twin world that feels like the end. Luckily I know a couple other twin mommas that I can talk to that confirm that I am not just being over dramatic.
I wanted to work til at least September but I just don’t see that happening. My back problems are even worse than b4 I got pregnant, obviously, and all my joints hurt unless I am laying on my side. I feel like what I felt like when I was a few weeks away from delivery with Brayden.
No complaints tho, every day that I wake up still pregnant and in pain is a good day. Just kinda venting I suppose.
I’m still very restricted to what I am allowed to do, still pelvic rest which means no lifting, walking too much, etc. BUT I really want to get the nursery done or somewhat done very soon so that if I am to be put on strict bed-rest or into the hospital I wont be freaking out about that. I know that babies could care less and that is fine but I wont have any time or energy to do anything once they are here so I’d like to get going on it now.
The room is full of crap that needs to be moved to another area of the house or GoodWill but I can’t physically do it and Matt is busy working or putting the pool up or diggin something in the backyard...... I don’t think he gets why I want to do it now even tho I have explained it - oh, a million times.
On a more fun note, I feel them moving around at least a few times a day, not quite as strong or as frequent as I would like but I will take what I am given right now. Both babies have anterior placentas so they keep telling me it will take awhile for me to feel the movements - I don’t get that since they are inside ME, but I’m not gonna argue with the docs :-)

Never gets old

Yesterday I had an ultrasound and it was pretty neat. I brought the kids along with and believe it or not Brayden was much more into it than Harmony. They both got bored pretty quickly when she started to measure the brains, leg bones, tummies, etc. They did think it was pretty darn cool to see them moving around in there and we saw baby girl waving and doing what looked like a fist pump but the best part of it was when baby boy looked to be doing baby squats. It was hilarious, up and down and up and down probably 5 or 6 times. She took a pic that I am posting. Its of the back of him, no head but baby back, legs and lil teeny baby boy butt. Super cute, I just wanna pinch it! :-)
Matt says I need to eat more cuz baby is too skinny, I said that’s prob why he was doing squats. He is obviously Matts son. I have plenty of fat he can take and considering he weighs about 10 oz, he looks pretty good :-)
Baby girls pic is of her being all cute and cuddled up, hands in front of face, legs crossed just like a lady. Its hard to see since they are 4d pics.
I am just shy of 19 weeks now and have another u/s next week that Matt will be able to come to. They are also doing “genetic counseling” with us which I think is ridiculous. Little late for that, dontcha think?!?!? I am not gonna let them sit and tell me all the things that “could” be wrong since we chose to be pregnant “at my age” but I will allow them to tell me what type of tests my kids should have since I have 4 mutated genes that I can pass to them. Any reason to go and see the babies again tho. This is the OB’s gender u/s..... I wont tell them that we already know....shhhhh.

The flood gates have opened and I have started buying.... watch out checkbook! I buy at least one package of diapers and wipes each week, sometimes 2 if it’s a good sale and looking at clothes but harder to buy those not knowing if they will be super little or “normal size” so only bought a few super cute things on clearance so far. I have a girlfriend that had twins 4 months ago and they are on a preemie formula - she is spending $100 each week on formula so I am hoping that I can BF a lil bit, to off set some of that cost. With buying diapers and wipes each week I hope that will help too when the babies come and I am not working.

Not sure how much longer I will be working either. Specialist says all ok for now as long as I continue to do what I am doing, which is pretty much nothing. I go see them every other week and so each time I will know whether or not I have another 2 weeks to work. No tears or bleeding **knock on wood** as of now so that is good too. Blood flow is perfect so i can stay on the the lower dose of lovenox injections and i am completely off the progesterone AND the steroid. Being off the steroid is nice, the acne seems to be clearing up but i think thats where a lot of the pain is coming from. I think i could bathe in Tylenol and still be unable to get up and walk w/out pain. Oh well.... NO complaining here.... wanted this and so happy to have it!!!

I like things even

I have been like that since I can remember. Even numbers of things, cept my fav number of 3 (dont ask), things stacked in the cupboard evenly, etc. We have a son, a daughter, a girl dog, a boy dog and now we have another girl and boy on the way! Brayden seems to have my "even issue" cuz when he was told, he said "cool, now things will still be even in the house".

I think we will need to get another Guinea Pig in the female form tho since Rocky is messing up the "even-steven-ness" that we have going on :-)

I would have been happy with whatever we were having but I was really holding out for at least one girl and how fun would TWO twincesses be???? But I also really wanted Matt to be able to have a son. I know how important that seems to be to men. We have struggled so long and pushed so hard for this and it still doesnt seem real, maybe when I go into labor or am actually holding 2 healthy babies, I'm not quite sure when it will hit me.

Matt wants each of us to name one baby and the baby we dont name we name the middle name.... sounds fair, but I would really rather just agree on names, i mean, we are adults, we should be able to find 4 names that we both like, right? LOL, yeah, with Matt and I, that is not an easy thing to do.

The tech was funny yesterday cuz Baby "A" (the boy) was showing his stuff no problem and she really really needed to look and search for the sex of Baby "B" (as the tech put it "not a boy"), she being a lil more modest. Makes sense, Brayden still would walk around naked and show off his stuff if we let him.