Follow up appointment

My specialist in IL didn’t want met to wait to come in on Thursday so she had another doc scan me at their office this morning. She took me off the Lovenox completely when I started to bleed a week ago Sunday.
I haven’t bleed **knock on wood** or had any brown yuck for at least 3 days, yay! However, there is a bleed that has not started to clot just yet, which makes me think it’s a NEW bleed - why wouldn’t I be bleeding from that if it was the same one? Who knows.
What I do know is that the blood flow to one of the babies is not the best, not where they want it so I will need to go back on the blood thinner injections but they don’t want me to if I am bleeding or have a “bleed”..... tricky stuff there. So now I am just waiting on the docs call to see what the next plan is. The doc that scanned me said that she would want me back in 3 days for another scan, great, more time off of work and another 2.5 hours in the car! Sure do love seeing those babies tho, so I guess there is always a pay off when I go out there :-)

They have lowered my steroid pill to 25/day instead of the 30 and hoping we can go down again real soon. I’m getting super “puffy” in the face and the acne is killing me! Plus she had said she wanted me off by 12 weeks..... I’m 12 weeks now..... whoops!
Im also hoping to be able to cut back or go off the progesterone but we shall see about that. With the bleeding and the “bleeds” in the uterus I don’t think me getting off progesterone is their main concern right now.
They don’t want me at work but since I sit all day and take the elevator they ok’d me as long as I wasn’t actively bleeding so that is good.
The babies were moving around today and it was pretty darn cool to see. A few weeks ago baby B twitched while we had an u/s but tech said it wasn’t voluntary and now the babies are moving cuz they wanna. Pretty neat to watch them bop around in there. Once it looked like they did a “head-butt” but obviously since they have their own sacs it isn’t possible but sure looked that way.

Had a minor panic, freak out over the last few days but glad I was able to keep it under control for the most part.
I am just now getting used to being pregnant and talking about the future with these babies as part of our family and then Mothers Day crept up on me. Last Mothers Day I got “the call” that my numbers had gone down (after progressing very nicely twice) and that I would miscarry yet again. Was a hard call on any day but it was a lil extra cruel on that day. I was able to enjoy the day because of family, the hubs and the 2 children that I have but not before I cried and lost my mind first. It was not cool. So remembering that made me freak a lil bit. Remembering how painful it was sent me into a tizzy thinking about how this could end up the same. I kept it under control and enjoyed the weekend! Of course I know that things don’t have to end up the same each time and that we are ok but being rational doesn’t really come into your mind when you are having a panic attack. Too bad cuz I’m pretty sure that would stop them. Oh well, learning to live with them and getting better at not letting them get out of control so that is good.

I would have rather peed myself

**Things I never thought I would say**
Sunday I stood up from the couch and felt a gush...... thought to myself "did you just pee yourself, please let me have peed myself". But I didn't, it was blood and I freaked. Obviously.
Went over to ER and after 2 HOURS they finally gave me an u/s to see if the babies were ok. Ugh, 2 hours. Why would they take my blood, blood pressure, temp, do a pap, etc THEN check for heartbeats? What would any of that matter if they were gone? Whatever, I wasn't in my right mind otherwise I would have asked.
Both babies were there snug in my uterus and moving around with heartbeats, thank goodness! Heartrates were great and they labeled me as a "threatened miscarriage" and a subchorionic bleed. Which from what i can understand is when the placenta tears away from the uterus and bleeds. They don't know why people get them and there is nothing you can do to cause them or keep them away. Some of the "lucky ones" just get to have them. Lucky me.
I was put on modified bed rest with no work until I could see the doctor. I saw my regular OB and the nurse over at old RE's yesterday and babies were still good. I was told I could come to work 2day but to use the elevator, etc.
I guess what you need to be careful with these is making them bigger. They can go away on their own and cause no issues at all but if they get bigger instead of smaller then they will make you miscarry. So if I wasn't on "light duty" before I sure as hell am now.
Every cramp makes me think but I am trying to stay positive. The specialist said this could happen cuz of the blood thinner injections so this was not a complete shock - just didn't want it to happen. Would have rather have been the person who didn't bleed while pregnant and on blood thinner - wishful thinking I suppose.

Another week down.....

Up until 12 weeks I will have an ultrasound every week - yay! I went in last Thursday but they didn't have room for me on Thursday or Friday so i got to go in early - yesterday. I didn't mind at all :-)
Its crazy how much the babies grow in just 5 days. They are looking less blob-like and more alien-like now. Pretty fun!
Both babies are measuring exactly 8 weeks and their heartbeats are exactly the same at 169. Crazy, they are competitive already. Deff gotta be Matt and my babies! The tech thought that was funny cuz most times they measure a lil off and HB's are not the same like that. Cute lil buggers.
I'm feeling a lil queasy all day but what is worse are the constant headaches and "shaky feeling". I'm eating so its not that making me shaky, not quite sure what that is all about but part of pregnancy i assume.
During the u/s they found a tear and a bleed. They were not surprised at all since i am on lovenox this happens a lot. The good news is that it is small and my body already started to clot it and take care of it. I am not allowed to take the blood thinner (lovenox) injections at all for the next few days and when I start back up again I can only take 60mg/day instead of the 100mg/day that I was taking. I am also on more light duty. Not that anyone really let me do anything b4 this u/s but now i have to be even more careful. I talked the doc into letting me go to work only cuz I sit at a desk all day. Promised her I would take the elevator and wouldn't bend/lift at work then go home and put my feet up. They didn't seem overly alarmed by the bleed so I'm gonna take from them and not be overly alarmed. Life will be slow for a bit but it does have to go on. Things to do - yanno.
She told me not to shop, which i thought was a funny thing to bring up, but she said the extra walking, bending, trying things on, etc can stress the uterus and make the tear bigger which is not what they want. Im so exhausted that shopping is not on my list of things to do anyway so Im alright with that for now!
The babies each have so much already! They are forming ears now or at least the holes for the ears and they each have a placenta and cord already. Its so neat to see it all so early. This pic is 3D so it looks weird but you can see that they have huge heads and lil arm and leg buds from the pic. Baby A is on the left and is in a better position to be able to see all that stuff. Looks like a lil gummy bear right now.