Trying not to freak

Today was my "clearing u/s" to make sure all was ok to get started with the injections for IVF. Everything went well except the u/s was super fast so of course i had to ask how many follies she saw to start with. Yeah...... 3, THREEEEEEEE f-ing follies. To all of you non IVF'ers - that is not a good clearing appt. I think the only thing worse would be to be told you had none and to go home to never return. Why the hell would I pump hormones in mega doses into my body for 3 follies, why would I go thru the pain (emotional and physical) of the egg retrieval process to have three follies? I suppose because its 2 more follies than what i would have on a regular cycle, but still. When you go with IVF the point is to get way MORE follies than you would normally have. I was hoping for 40 but more realistically just 10-15 would have made me happy.
I left with tears in my eyes - deff not a cry, but wet eyes nonetheless.. The nurse said that sometimes after a few days of the injections some secret ones pop out, but I think that was to make me feel better. She took blood and said that she would talk to the doc about what his thoughts were on the whole thing. **Sigh**. Now I sit and wait for the call.....
Im trying to not do what I normally do and doom the whole cycle already and I think I am doing better, but deff not able to look at this as a good thing, just yet.