Monday, May 10, 2010

Follow up appointment

My specialist in IL didn’t want met to wait to come in on Thursday so she had another doc scan me at their office this morning. She took me off the Lovenox completely when I started to bleed a week ago Sunday.
I haven’t bleed **knock on wood** or had any brown yuck for at least 3 days, yay! However, there is a bleed that has not started to clot just yet, which makes me think it’s a NEW bleed - why wouldn’t I be bleeding from that if it was the same one? Who knows.
What I do know is that the blood flow to one of the babies is not the best, not where they want it so I will need to go back on the blood thinner injections but they don’t want me to if I am bleeding or have a “bleed”..... tricky stuff there. So now I am just waiting on the docs call to see what the next plan is. The doc that scanned me said that she would want me back in 3 days for another scan, great, more time off of work and another 2.5 hours in the car! Sure do love seeing those babies tho, so I guess there is always a pay off when I go out there :-)

They have lowered my steroid pill to 25/day instead of the 30 and hoping we can go down again real soon. I’m getting super “puffy” in the face and the acne is killing me! Plus she had said she wanted me off by 12 weeks..... I’m 12 weeks now..... whoops!
Im also hoping to be able to cut back or go off the progesterone but we shall see about that. With the bleeding and the “bleeds” in the uterus I don’t think me getting off progesterone is their main concern right now.
They don’t want me at work but since I sit all day and take the elevator they ok’d me as long as I wasn’t actively bleeding so that is good.
The babies were moving around today and it was pretty darn cool to see. A few weeks ago baby B twitched while we had an u/s but tech said it wasn’t voluntary and now the babies are moving cuz they wanna. Pretty neat to watch them bop around in there. Once it looked like they did a “head-butt” but obviously since they have their own sacs it isn’t possible but sure looked that way.

Had a minor panic, freak out over the last few days but glad I was able to keep it under control for the most part.
I am just now getting used to being pregnant and talking about the future with these babies as part of our family and then Mothers Day crept up on me. Last Mothers Day I got “the call” that my numbers had gone down (after progressing very nicely twice) and that I would miscarry yet again. Was a hard call on any day but it was a lil extra cruel on that day. I was able to enjoy the day because of family, the hubs and the 2 children that I have but not before I cried and lost my mind first. It was not cool. So remembering that made me freak a lil bit. Remembering how painful it was sent me into a tizzy thinking about how this could end up the same. I kept it under control and enjoyed the weekend! Of course I know that things don’t have to end up the same each time and that we are ok but being rational doesn’t really come into your mind when you are having a panic attack. Too bad cuz I’m pretty sure that would stop them. Oh well, learning to live with them and getting better at not letting them get out of control so that is good.

1 comment:

Tessey Sue said...

Prayers for the babies, and your mental health! Things will work out and in no time (but not too soon) you will be cuddling your babies and all of this will be a distant memory and a short blurp in the baby books.