Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Patience.......

Numbers are looking good, they went from 5790 to 14,751 in 4 days which is good enuf for me and for the doc! My progesterone is thru the frickin roof tho, its coming in anywhere from 160-180 and “normal and adequate” is anywhere from like 20-40 or something. Its crazy that I am even able to wear pants or stay awake long enuf to put pants on! Talked to the doc and said that I could take 2 more shots and then discontinue them. So I will take one wed night and one Friday night then done. Now, to be perfectly honest I don’t hate the shots. They hurt and I have bruises and lumps and bumps all over my backside but I feel afraid to stop. I am kinda afraid to lose the “symptoms” that it gives me, for fear that I wont have any at all! I don’t care much for the prometrome (sp, wrong but its progesterone just like the injections) pills that I take, they make me groggy and would rather have stopped those instead of the shots but I will do what they say!
I will still take 2 injections/day but those are in the belly and I have lumps, bumps and bruises on that side too!
I made the appt for another u/s on Thursday. I could have made it for Wednesday but I fear that would be too soon to see a beating heart (or 2) and then I would freak so I guess I am learning some patience with this whole process. Better to wait I am thinking. Hopefully I will be rewarded for that patience!

BTW, we saw TWO sacs at the last u/s. Both gestational sacs had yolk sacs in them which is a good thing and all you can expect to see at the week mark I was last week. The gestational sac on Baby "A" was way bigger than Baby "B" but the yolk sacs were pretty close in "age" so the doc didnt seem concerned since they could have implanted a day/two apart and hopfully baby "B" will catch up and do just fine.
I was so excited to see that - I would LOVE to have twins. Two for the price of one in this situation. I love that my kids are close together in age, I still watch them hang out and kid around with each other and love that. I didnt have any siblings and always wanted someone to talk to or play with or hang out with and was so happy to be able to give that to my children. Obv Harmony and Bray would hold a diff role with a child born into their lives at this point. They wont be playing togethter or sharing problems or growing 2gether. Thats why I would love to have double trouble - so this child doesnt have to be an "only child". But of course i would be thrilled to see one beating heart as well!!!
Of course I know that we could go in at the end of the week and see no heartbeat on either or just on one and I would be thrilled to see a beating heart but trying not to get too wrapped up in the twin thing since I know so much can change, plus my numbers (or lack of m/s) really dont indicate twins at all. It sure is hard tho.

4 comments:

Miss Megan said...

Hang in there hun!! When you go in on Thursday I just really think you are going to see two beating hearts! Two sacs, two yolk sacs, approximately the same gestational age - all EXCELLENT signs! I was worried too when I was at that point, but it turned out there was no need to be. Double trouble here you come!!
And your backside will definitely thank you for disconinuing the PIO - LOL=). I have no idea how you are functioning with a P4 that high. . .mine was 78 and I was falling asleep in my chair at work - lmbo - you have got to be a walking zombie!

Princess Chelsea said...

Now that it is wednesday, i am thinking thursday is coming toooooo fast and im not ready. Did you feel that way? Im just so nervous!
I opted out of the beta today just cuz it only makes me have more anxiety. Its not giving me much peace so i figured i wouldnt go. What would be the point, no matter the outcome i would still have to go to the u/s 2moro so why worry about it, right?
Oh my, remember i was telling you i didnt have any bruises, well let me tell you - i have been punished for saying that! They are HUGE and HARD are rocks - they are awful, yet i wouldnt mind continuing them - what a weird thing, right?
Plus my backside is ichy, is yours too?
I have NO IDEA how i am even up and functioning ever with the high progesterone, honestly, c'on i mean lets be serious - what is normal, like 40 or something? Geeze! I am a walking zombie and i dont drink caffiene so that isnt able to help me either. I think the fact that i take the metnax with all the Vit b's may be helping but i just am dragging! Loving it tho, cuz that means i got what i wanted - no complaints here, cept that im not throwing up, lol.

Miss Megan said...

I most definitely felt that way! Like at least if I was just in the in-between-appointments period I was still pregnant with twins. BUT, every time I go in for an appointment I am braced for one or both of the babies to no longer be there. So, it switches from happy status quo between appointments, to holy crap thinking of the worst that could possible happen when the appointment gets close. It drives me bananas!
I would have opted out of the beta too. It is a lot of extra anxiety, and really, what is it going to tell you anyway? At this point the u/s is a much more effective diagnostic tool. There is a reason that all docs don't draw a gazillion HCG levels - and that's because it doesn't really matter that much - it just gives the patients one more thing to stress about!
LMBO that you cursed yourself with the bruising! Si got me good again last night too. . .sigh. . .my booty looks like a warzone! I wouldn't change it for anything in the world though! Totally worth it for these little beans! Oh and the itching. . .yeah, the bruises itch. Stupid bruises! At least it means they are healing I suppose=).
Oh, and you can have some of my m/s ANY TIME YOU WANT IT! I have lost 10 lbs so far, and it's freaking me out because what I read with twins is you need to gain weight quickly. I just keep losing it and I feel like I am somehow inadvertently hurting the babies! Your puking time will come.I have feeling=). Keep the faith woman. Can't wait to hear how your appointment goes tomorrow=)

Princess Chelsea said...

ok, I wouldn’t worry too much about the weight loss, although hard I am sure. Let me tell you what my doc told me FOREVER ago when I was preggo (even tho I have never had any issue gaining weight, preg or otherwise). He said that the baby takes what it needs from our body and we are left with whatever is leftover. So the better we eat, the better WE feel. The babies will take everything it needs and leave you with the scraps. I also was reading that protein is really important in pregnancy for baby as well as helpful for m/s. Funny since meat and protein seem to be the LAST thing preggos can stomach so I would say to go get some whey protein shakes and throw it in a blender with some ice cream or something to add some calories and dairy. Muscle Milk is actually really good by itself so with ice cream I’m sure its delicious. Maybe the protein can help the m/s a bit? Or I can tell you that fried foods were one of my favs too, not good for you but it was something I could eat w/out feeling like crap. I was lucky with the kids tho. Never threw up, just kinda “off” in the tummy area. I ate all day tho, and that helped to keep the m/s away. Like crackers and stuff like that, lil things all day long. Prob why I was over 200 when I delivered, lol. Geesh